- WHATEVER(:

Currently kinda in class slacking thru the 2 hours break..
dun realli know what to do though... kinda like say.. my mind is in a whirl right now..
there is like so many things thats running thru my brain.. and i also dunno how to realli go and process each and single one of them...

well.. now my class.. some are PSP-ing.. one reading manga.. one sleeping.. one checking hotels site.. some playing mahjong.. and im here blogging.. the rest all went for lunch somewhere else...

well... wanna thank Joey for his realli encouraging words yesterday.. he realli brings mi to light in a lot of thing.. and realli helped mi in a lot of areas.. kinda like God sent him to mi to answer all my prayers though.. thru him.. hahaha..

okaye. let mi update wat im doing for the past few days..

Went over to Temasek Poly for TPDE's Dance Concert as there is no FB pracz last friday due to Phat nite in NYP.. Had some Glitches here and there.. almost stuck outside the auditorium and cant enter.. thanks to my own stupidity.. i slot the ticket somewhere which i couldnt find.. but in the end.. they let mi though..

the concert.. was nicee.. wont realli say its dope.. but all the dancing is somewhat Cool.... had some realli funnie moments and some realli different genre of dance..

Headed to Changi Airport's popeye for dinner with the rest of the FBodz Junior.. dinner was okaye... nothing much to complain or to say though..but being with them is like family to mi though... realli enjoyed the time spent with them... well i know sometimes im realli caught up and cant commit the time to like go outings with them.. as much as i want to.. but i sreiously enjoyed their company.. and they are always so jokey..and so fun to be with la...

well.. somehow.. i just feel like my entire life has took a change somehow.. im so dried up inside.. so dead bury under the pile of work that is stacking...kinda like im no longer who im realli was anymore though.. things are getting harder and harder to get by... i strongly believe that i can get over all these.. but the matter is i dunno how long i can hang on.. before im being changed by all these stupid circumstances.. im supposed to change the circumstances and not the other way round.. i know that point.. but somehow.. things are just pilling.. even the stuff that i do everyday is getting harder to get by... haizz...

im seriously praying for a breakthrough right now la.. life cant go on like this.. it will just take a toll on myself and everybody that i know..

okaye... im actually bloggin here to kill time though.. just finished my "hello Panda" chocolate biscuits.. if u dunno how it look like.. this is how it look like....

Alright.. i dun realli know wat to blog now alreadi.. just came here to update update abit and to kill some time.. but apparently. it onli work abit.. cox i still got another like 1 1/2 hours to go before the next lesson.. well. that lesson is rather redundant also la.. the lecturer ask us how to do...we give the lecturer the answer.. and he got paid for just doing that... how nice is NYP.... -.-"

okaye.. going off...

Finally had some time to come online and blog... although my house is rather noisy now thanks to my sis and her friends.. so much for "doing project"....
This whole week has really been tiring...

i shall start with tuesday then...

Tuesday (15/7/08)

Well... it was my 2nd birthday actually.. in Christ of course! hahahaa.. i was saved on that day one year ago! wahahahaa...

Went to watch Batman- The Dark Knight with Joy, Suherman and Roger... Patrick, one of my friend from my cell groups happen to have free movie tickets to that so tadah.. we went to watch.. initially, we tot it was more of like a sneak preview.. but no.. it was the GALA PREMIERE! the one where there are celebrities who went to watch.. we even saw the red carpet at LIDO.. but unfortunately... our timeslot was at a later time.. so hence we didnt see any celebrities.. but the movie was worth it!
Oh yea... due to the "48 hours-before-the-actual-launch, no-photography-allowed" policy... we had to surrender our phones before entering into the theatre..

After the show.. of course wanna go home.. but guess wat.. NO MORE TRAINS AND BUS! we literally waited at the bus stop for night rider but it never came... so no choice took a cab home... 20 bucks fly away....

Reached home and quickly chiong my Sem proj for that stupid trial presentation... till morning...

Wednesday

Literally didnt slept a wink from tuesday.. and headed to sku.. by tat time im alreadi like half gone... so kinda deli dali abit here and there.. and sianz.. gonna be late.. took the blardy cab again.. ANOTHER 20 bucks gone! im so sick and tired of taking cab alreadi la...

Reached sku and had lessons... during Sem Proj Lessons.. NO ONE was prepared. and so the trial presentation was cancelled.. like so wat the heck can... haizzz...

Headed to Orchard to shop. cox we have planned that for like quite some times ago.. to go Cinelesisure and get wat we wanted.. Joy managed to get her EXCLUSIVE cap from Collage! it was realli exclusive.. cox thats the ONLY PIECE in the shop! as in everything in the shop.. they only got ONE PIECE..

For mi? still remember the 40 bucks Adidas voucher i gotten from my cell group on my bday???? well.. yea.. thats the one.. and so i wanted to spent it before it expires.. gotten a realli nice Adidas Tee shirt which costs 52.. but after the discount.. only needa pay 12 bucks! wahahahaha...

Came back home and started doing on Marketing proj... didnt realise that i did it thru the night again...

Thursday

Apparently.. just wanna clarify something is that.. although i scored well for Marketing common test.. but that doesnt like make mi the oracle of marketing or something....

the marketing lecturer, ever since last week when he announced the result, kept on shooting at mi question like as if i know all the answers to it... haiz....but on a lighter note.. i do learn something in the end...

Friday

Went to Kbox after sku to celebrate Roger's birthday.. although his bday was on tuesday.. and our celebration was kinda like belated.. nonetheless we had alot of fun singing and enjoying ourselves!

Singing...

look so retarded...

Roger making a wish...
He took damn long to wish can! Piang!

Okaye.. the rest of the pics.. are without mi.. as i had left alreadi...
so do enjoy! its some realli crazie pics.. so pls dun puke while watching!

I tink suherman is too high?

Oh gosh! freaking groste la...
Roger eating Suherman's "chocolate cake"?

Suherman and Roger!

Indian dance? or
Thousand hand Guang Yin?
(although theres only 8 hands! wahhaha)

Lastly the gang!

Suherman getting high and doing funnie faces..

Oh no.. now all of them gotten his virus and doing funnie faces.
-_-"

As much as i wanted to stay and continue celebrating.. i left early for FBodz Practice.. as it was the Junior dance exams that day... cant afford not to go.. so i went... got splited up into groups and i tink our cheoro are gud... but every groups has their own unique cheorography.. that i had to agree....

during the last showcase.. screwed up like realli bad.. i was supposed to move back and melvin was supposed to move forward.. and in the end.. we bang onto each other.. but of course we quickly got back composure and finished the song...

i was marked By YPeng... and all the time before i gotten my result.. i was realli feeling very bad and down for screwing up the dance... as in it not only affect mi, it affect the whole group as well... so i wasnt expecting much of a result for that..

But to my surprise, i had quite a number of gud comments and of course a few that needs to be improved like:

Details: not clear enough on some parts
Expression too constant.. must smile more..
Off beat! =(

Good ones are:

Fairly good details for the rest of the songs
action is big.. good!
have good confident.

and hence my score was 38/50.... i didnt expect to get such grades la.. im more of like expecting a fail though... but i tink i just needa kick away the bad habits of thinking negatively...

For the group one... was told that we somehow clashes... like they say.. we are all more of dancing solo instead of a team.. and that we are actually dancing solo in a group for that showcase.. so yea..

anyway... just wanna keep u guys updated since i haven blogged for so long and also to keep the blog updated! =)

YO YO YO~

Suddenly had this very strong urge to blogg.. so wah- lah! im here blogging..

woke up late this morning and this morning it was raining like the entire zoo instead of cats and dogs... i literally couldnt get across the street to get a bus to the interchange and had to take the bus that goes one whole big loop to get to the interchange... but i didnt regret doing that.. although it took superrrr loonnnggggg...

so i board the bus and saw alot of Dunman Sec students... and some other sec sku students.. somehow the journey down to the interchange was a memory lane for mi.. some how or rather.. i felt that daddy God wants mi to remember the times i had with him and the times that i had before im in such a mess now... so on the bus.. i saw alot of Dunman Sec students.. although i dunno all of them in the bus.. but i tink they knew mi.. cox they were looking at mi like as if im some alien like that.. hahahaa.. can tell from their eyes that they must thinking "he is from dunman".. well... not very surprising la huh... i had dunman sec students calling mi in the middle of the streets and say he knows mi.. whereby i dunno him.. hahaha.. so back to the topic again.. i was on the bus.. and as the bus went on... i just felt like im going to sec sku.. just like in the past.. like wat i always use to do... the familiar nostalgic feeling is still the same!

To mi.. that ride down to the interchange was one the best ride i ever had so farr... it was short... but it was great...

Then i took 72... and it was alreadi bout 7.15am.. whereby my class start at 8.. (the journey from my place interchange to sku is 1 hour).. so im bound to be late.. and the bus move realli realli slow.... due to the heavy rain and every stop is full of people wanting to board the bus.. so the bus not onli moves very very slow.. and it also stop at one bus-stop for very long as well.. and i finally reached sku... and rushed to class and reached class at 9am on the dot! im exactly one hour late for class... but guess wats the most amazing thing...

just to let u know.. for this wed 8am class... the rule is that u cant be late for her class.. by 8.10.. if u are stil not there.. u will be locked outside the lab... and will be marked absent even if entry to the lab is granted...

so the amazing part is.. when i reached the lab.. the door was NOT LOCKED! and i happens to sit RIGHT infront of her.. like realli 90˚ right in front of her... so its die die she knows im late..and when i reached.. she knows my name and further confirmed it.. so in my mind i was thinking.. "okaye.. im dead.. shes gonna marked mi absent".. but u know wat! she ONLY STARTED taking attendance at 9am! so phew! i was marked PRESENT.. and not late..

this whole morning was realli an amazing and great morning that i had.. although it was raining like realli bad... but i just felt that God is there for mi... i dun lose anything and yet i gain more things... in the worst situation u can think of...

And just now.. before i left sku.. i was at mac with Joy and mae they all.. using my laptop.. and as some of u knows.. my battery is spoiled.. so i had no choice but to plug my com to the ac power.. and apparently.. i was in mac using one of the ac power.. and then out of the blue.. there is this uncle that plugged out our adapter WITHOUT even letting us know or tell us... so my com literally shut down abruptly.. i had to admit.. at tat instant.. i was pretty mad at him.. because my com is alreadi very full... and that i had a lot of important documents inside.. like my proj and everything.. and next week onwards are presentation and stuff.. i cant afford to crash my com now... so just by switching my com off abruptly without proper shutting down.. my com might crash.. so hence i was pretty mad at the uncle just now.. but i controlled myself and not do anything rash.. i was bout to bang the table though... cox im the middle of something..

Just wanna say arh... although the uncle has gud intention of not letting us charge our laptop as the wire might tripped someone else who is walking.. but every p0ly student.. they know and they know wat to do to avoid such situation.. i mean u cant just say dun use the socket because the wire will tripped people.. the sku installed those socket for us to use la.. and the uncle realli had no right to stop us from using it even though he has gud intention in mind.. at the very least he should let us know.. and let us do it ourselves... he cant just switch off the socket and plug out our charger just like that...

After that.. when i cooled down.. i started to sort things out... something is happening.. dont u realise these few days.. i keep on getting into trouble and such stuff.. so i started to think and think and go thru.... well.. i have to admit that im realli not gud in handling situations like this.. like sometimes .. when things are realli bad or worst.. its even harder to cast our cares on the Lord and to focus on Him.. well.. i realised that although i was pretty mad at that uncle just now.. but everything is okaye.. he is an old man afterall.. im very sure the last ting he wans is another enemy with him... so shall try not to create any more troubles for him.... dunno why after i vented and sorted out thinking.. my heart kinda goes out to the uncle.. i mean he meant well... and for those anger that i had against him.. it just kinda made mi feel rather bad and guilty though.... i mean come on. he is just an old man.. there is no meaning nor any glory in making his life miserable...

SO i just wanna say im sorie for all the bad thoughts that i had... and that i shall repent out of that.. all i can say is that all these things that im going thru.. its not gonna bring mi down.. but gonna make mi alot stronger after i got out of it.. =)

Today has not been a smooth sailing day for mi...

Went to AMK hub just now to eat... and after eating.. was walking out of the very crowded foodcourt.. and then suddenly there is this man that said "excuse mi"... naturally i move aside and let him passed.. i even said sorie to him for i know im in the wrong that im kinda blocking the way in a sense.. then the next word i heard from that guy was a very loud "dumbass"... that kinda pisses mi off.. i literally said "thank you!" very loud in the food court...

then after that when i reached home.. Mae Msned mi and told mi the MC has NOT been processed yet.. that pisses mi off rather badly... i mean lets put tings out logically... they sent mi a warning letter saying that i did not attend lesson for no valid reason and that i may be debarred from taking exams due to absenteesim... and wats more i have Medical Cert... i was alreadi very pissed off with that letter.. and i dun realli wanna acknowledge that letter.. for i dun see the reason why i should acknowledge that letter.. BUT i still acknowledge it anyway.. i still signed that slip though.. it clearly says:

"I acknowledge this reminder letter and understand that i may be excluded from any NYP examinations assessments if my attendance falls below 85% and consequently deemed to have failed in the above mentioned module"

Nevermind... i still signed it anyway... i just cant take it that till now the sku still have NOT processed the MC... it will be damn ridiculous if the system sent mi an email and says my MC is revoked for late submission.. for i handed in wayyy long ago... it cant be our fault that the MC got revoked because the staff took so long to process it... and we students have to be Marked absent for NO valid reasons... wat does that goes to show? the sku lack efficiency or are we students that dumb?

And when i came online.. nicely see the tagboard.. and got shoot... dunno wat i have done also.. merely just posting the FB Juniors outing pics onli.. although i know its realli alot.. but for sure i know one thing is that i merely just wanna share wat is going on that day in my blog.. thats all.. yet.. i was being called arrogant for that?? dunno how it linked.... plus i also never post vids... and im very sure there are other bloggers who posted even more pics that mi on that particular day....

In the past.. when i first started blogging.. i dun post pics.. if u had the time to go and archive my very very long ago entries.. u will know.. cox i find it a hassle..and im a HTML/IT idiot... then i kena shoot and says my blog is too wordy.. should have some pictures and stuff to enhance the blog entries.. to make it look better and to share some joy also.. for pictures speaks a thousand words... that kinda make sense and i do agree my blog do get very wordy in the past.. so i started posting pics.. and now i got shoot again... haiz....

In the light of everything.. all i can say is that all these are a test to mi.. a test to my patience... a test to see how i react to situations... i still choose to believe and trust in Daddy God and that everything will turn out to be Good.. im very sure Daddy God wont leave mi in a lurch after putting mi there.. its up to mi to get up and continue trusting Him and walking with Him... people do fall sometimes....

okaye.. i dun wanna vent too much here.... my blog is not supposed to be some moody ventilation blog..

so sorie that i have caused so much torture for those whose reading this entry... and sorie for any offences if i have caused any offences to anyone.. truly sorie... pls forgive mi.. thanks... =)

Hey YO...

im back....

so sorie for not updating the blog for so long.... anyway.. so heres the update!

Been sick on Monday and Tuesday.. was really down with High Fever... and on Monday morning.. totally feel lethargic.. went to the doc and was given like freaking lotsa medicine.. ate the medicine for the first few days.. and then i give up. it was so bad.. hahaahah. i cant take those medicine.. make mi wanna puke at the thought of it.. so hence i stopped taking the medication... wats more the medication made mi lose all my appetite.. wahahhaa... but its gud in a way.. cox can slim down.. wahhaa!

went back to sku on wednesday... was told that i flunked one subject... Mechanics.. it wasnt realli surprising to mi though.. kinda like expected it.. haiz.. neeeda buck up more on it to prevent taking the stupid module again...

Then after that.. on friday.. was told that i had been given a warning letter for not attending the Mathes lectures and tutorial.. i was like "wat the?!" i had a MC to verify that im not fit for sku for 2 DAYS LA.. haiz.. gonna go and rectify that matter when i get back to sku.. dun wanna have some bad records in my portfolio... whereby.. this is totally uncalled for! i HAD VALID reasons for not attending sku...

NOW happie stuff!

Been invited to be the Guest Judge for one of the BME's Classes Communication Skills Oral Presentation.. wahhahhaa.. their fate lies in my hand... partially though.. hahahaha... kinda like a new experience for mi though.. never realli been a judge before.. and this is the the first official one.. hhahha. so shall do my part nicely for that...

alright.. shall post up some photos to end of the entry.. shall update soon!

Me and a few other cousins as USHER in Junjies wedding!
ANd yes.. PINK tie! =)

THe next few pics are taken in church after Mark and sandy's wedding!

Xiao Hui.. Uncle Gabriel the joker.. and me!

Part of the Cell group!

Wynstan!

ANd lastly.. signing off!

YOURS TRULY! =)