Went for Ngee Ann Poly NRA "Danzation" concert yesterday night...
i realli gotta say that they are dope! DOPE!! their moves are realli on the beat and wats more.. all their moves are very very well controlled and syncronised!
cheers and congrats to all those involved in Danzation!
Saw a few familiar faces as well.. like Diana... and some other people... wats more.. my cousin cum Blog manager was there as well! ahahahaha!!!!!
Joyce!wanted to eat out with the rest after the concert... but due to time constraint to catch the last train and stuff... headed home with Huda, Sharon, Nic Phua, Tricia, Su, Hacktor and Fiona.
okaye.. enough of dance stuff... i shall move on...
i have been thinking alot... and came to realise... sometimes in life... the more u wanted something.. the more u wont get it.. i dunno if thats true.. because its happening right now in my life...
there might be a gud reason behind it... or there might not even be a wee bit of reason behind it at all... but i have decided....
im kinda throwing in the towel...
its realli tiring... hopes have been fading as days go by... im not gonna yearn for much alreadi... im realli tired... its so hard to let go... yet its even harder to hold on... and i guess.. if i hold it too tight.. i wont even manage to hold on to anything.. not even air...
there are so much so much that i wanna achieve.. but somehow.. i just lack the motivation to carry on...
I had realli struggled alot to come to this part... somehow.. im missing the old Alan that was once there.. who never fails to be happy, who never fails to look at tings in a positive way.
it was a test for mi... a test to see how i can realli apply wat i used to say in the past.
there is no turning back..... i can onli move forward... and i dunno wat will be the outcome of this test...
i just blame myself for all the negative ting that happens in my life.. life aint perfect.. nothing is perfect.... no one is to be blamed except for mi... i truly pray and hope that i can overcome this...
sometimes... i wish that i can realli find somebody to talk to... someone that might actually understand... but then...
well... nevermind... im just typing some emo stuff...
im just pinning my feelings down.. so yea...
till then...
